Current mood:

scared

i don't know what to do with myself. last night i had a nice big cry, which, seriously, i haven't done for quite awhile. probably since january. it was fueled by my body being in dire need of sleep. i skipped class today because i wanted to sleep in, and plus, we are going to do NOTHING in class, i am sure. now i am all sorts of frazzled and all out of sorts. what am i supposed to be doing?! i know i have a million and one things to do, but i don't know where to start. where am i going in life? what the fuck is going on? why do i always feel like i'm on another planet?! what am i doing in chicago? oh, i go crazy when i am alone for over ten hours. UGH! i am, in cold hard fact, going to go to ritz and pick up my cell phone charger. that is a nice, concrete, necessary thing that i have to do. i also have to register and go to class at 4:30. i can do this! oh, how i just wish i could lie in bed and weep all day long!